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"i ahve an older sister her name is pam....she is the greatest sister that anybody could have i kno i don't get 2 see her that much cuz she doesn't live with me, but when i do get 2 see her we have the greatest time together....and we do the crazyest things me and my sis r like bestfriends. "


Fuck...................





I feel so fucking horrible right now.





The above quote at the very top is from my little sister's blog. I didn't even think she still viewed me like that. I mean......we LITERALLY almost NEVER talk. I don't think I've talked to her in almost 2 weeks.

She did seem disappointed when I told her I'd be out of town for a few days while she's in.



.............................I've thought about stuff like this a lot before. But now that it's been said by someone outside of my own internal thoughts.....my own sister. I don't know how to take it.


I should have done a much better job when I had the chance.